Poem

As I said earlier I am right now in a kind of depressed mood. I don't know why, maybe the whole situation is just now sinking in. Maybe I am just now starting to realize the magnitude of what happened because until now I was in a daze. I have no answer because I always thought I lived fairly normal life. The fact that I can not sleep is another issue that probably will solve itself in time.

But generally, I am in very mellow mood and yesterday's session at MSKCC did nothing to reduce my feelings or provide me with a reasonable explanation for the situation I am in. But still it felt good to open up honestly without any reservation.

I "stole" the poem below from the Internet. I hope the author will not get mad at me.


The Leaving
© Colin Jarratt

Is it truly selfish to want you back again?
I could not calm your mind, I could not ease your pain;
I thought my love would be enough to keep you here with me;
But now I know that was never going to be.

I loved you, I disliked you, we argued and we kissed;
Your face, your touch, your scent forever I shall miss;
To hold you in my arms again, my soul no longer lost;
I'd pay the price and gladly have no worry to the cost.

They say that life gets better and time will ease the pain;
They're fools who cannot see the truth, it can never be the same;
No daytime and no nighttime just hour on hour on hour;
And time has no more meaning now life's not sweet it's sour.

Some think we have a life-force or a soul some others say;
If I had one I know it died that dreadful, dreadful day;
Sometimes I know I hurt you, I know that was so true;
But please forgive me for those wrong
FOR I ALWAYS WILL LOVE YOU!






Source: http://www.familyfriendpoems.com/poem/the-leaving#ixzz31Jc1Eyip
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